My Baby Was Due Today and I'm Still Not Pregnant

Pregnant and Tired
My baby was due today. I'm so sad that I'll never get to hold my baby Orion Hunter until I get to heaven. I only got to touch him in the Tupperware container he was "born" into. 😢 He was due on his grandmother's birthday. I consoled myself ever since losing him that I would be pregnant by the time he was supposed to be born. Well, the day has come and I'm still not pregnant. I'm just really struggling and needed to share with some ladies who would understand. 
I'm ovulating today. Please pray for me ladies that I conceive. It would be so special to conceive a baby on the day he was supposed to be born. I had an HSG earlier this month and my tube was blocked and cleared on the same side I'm ovulating on. It's giving me some hope. I need hope on this super sad day.