hate sex

Has anyone ever been in a shitty abusive relationship where u have taken them back so many times for lying and cheating cause they don't leave you alone.. so when it comes to sex.. and they talk by text about sex with you or when your in bed.. you legit cringe at the thought of them touching u.. like my girlfriend just messaged me saying she can't wait to come home to her sexy girlfriend and sent me some sex emojis and I just kinda ignore it haha can't I legit cbf ..