can I just vent?

After a stillbirth in August and a miscarriage  last month I don't think my heart can handle much more of waiting. Wait for a positive pregnancy test, wondering if I'll have a successful pregnancy, wondering if I'll ever bring a baby home and wondering if I'll ever be a mom. I cry all the time, my chest always hurts, my anxiety is out of control and my arms have never felt so empty 😢😢😢😢