Shout out to my Ex!!
I have done this so many times, I have recently split from my fiancé of four year. The first 6 months of our relationship I should have left him but only stayed purposely because the girl wanted to be with him and laughed at me. I use to get messages off girls saying your boyfriend said this sent that and every time I forgave him and stayed with him. This last year I stayed where I was engaged to him I had messages off other girls and even in my birthday found out he asked a girl to share a hotel room with him, you would think I would have seen sense but I didn't. Even when we split up last November I was back with him within 24 hours. I was use to him, use to his company and scared to be lonely. I loved him but I fell out of love with him for such a long time. I lied to myself thinking it would get better and I would learn to fall in love with him again but I didn't I just went along. Then just about a month ago we had a little argument and usually I would beg him and tell him I'm sorry (even when it weren't me that was wrong) and I just didn't fight for him. He said "this isn't working out" I fought for us for a bit to stay together even though deep down I didn't want to be with him at all I was just scared of loneliness. Then i just realised that I didn't need to be like this because I deserve better than his sorry arse he said He didn't love me, I gave him one more chance to fight for me (even though again I was extremely unhappy) he said again once more I don't love you, that was it I thought I can do this and I just said on he phone "that's it then we are done, bye." 
4 years and 1 month we was together and year engaged down the river. Even though I fell out of love with him I still stayed and even though I had girls message me all the time of the things he did I still stayed with him. Part of me still loves him because I was with him from being 15 he was my first boyfriend, my first sexual partner my first kiss everything and we went on holidays together so many times. But holding onto something trying to make things work isn't worth it. I didn't deserve anything that he did to me especially when I would give him everything. He was in the RAF and I was willing to travel across the country and world leaving my family at home he still walked all over me.
Now a month on I'm happier without him, I'm seeing my own friends and family more spending time and having a laugh. I do still cry and get upset but we have been through a lot together and I am upset over the dreams and plans I had with him and to give up everything wouldn't be easy but I still would have done it. Stupid I know...I'm making new relations with other lads who are treating like a princess like I have never been treated before and we are just friends.
Girls I know it's hard to walk away from what you know and deep down you know your guy isn't like that just walk away because sweetheart you do not deserve that! You deserve the world 🌎
This is me and my Ex and me yes we look happy but we all can be oscar winning actresses when we want to be but here is to me and my future achieving my own dreams and making new ones!!
Here is to my new start!!
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