I'm terrified of an epidural!!

I refuse to have an epidural. The fact that a needle is going in my spine is terrifying. I recently had to get a cerclage in and they attempted to do an epidural and it hurt so bad and I was freaking out they had to put me to sleep. What are some other ways of delivery? I've been leaning towards natural and if it's c-section I want to be put to sleep. These are my two wants right now but I haven't spoke to an astesiologist yet. I live in Houston, TX and I'm due July 2nd. 😭 *Scared first time Mommy*