to the religious girls... help me

and i've been evangelizing to a stubborn friend of mine.. i literally spent an hour figuring out what i was gonna text him so he could get an idea of what god is about and stuff and to give him some answers, to which he replied "I'm not gonna say much about it, but if I go to hell so be it. I understand you're trying to help, and I appreciate it but I just don't feel like that's somethin I can partake in. So please don't be offended by anything I say I'm just not gonna change my life for this"

and i was just

shocked. and really hurt, tbh, because i thought i was so close.

then, i had invited him and my other guy friend to my church's summer camp. like 2 weeks ago, they said they would come and now, one of them is backing out and i literally blew up. i felt bad, but i was like "its fine. dont come. i know you dont want to, so its fine." and i was giving him such attitude and i know that wasnt the right thing, but i'm just so done whats the point of trying to get others to come to jesus if this is how they treat you 😭😭😭