Feeling lonely, about to deliver
I'm just so sick of having to be strong in the face of difficulty all the time.
The past 9 months have been a series of awful events:
It started with a ski accident, I had knee surgery to completely replace my ACL, I was on crutches for a month with my 2 young children.
Then I found out I was pregnant, husband doesn't want a 3rd.
Then my dog died (had him for 10 years, I loved him so much).
A month later my father committed suicide. Needless to say, this was most traumatic.
A couple of weeks later I lost my job (my fault but I was under a lot of pressure).
Then my husband lost his job a week later.
Then we had to sell our house and move to a place where I did not want to go.
We have to move out every month to rent the house out to vacationers so we get some money because neither of us works. It sucks with the kids l, we have to go to a hotel every time and it's such a big production to pack and unpack. L
My husband is helping with our 2 kids but I don't agree at all with his ways. He is aggressive and snappy and it drives me crazy. I feel like I'm better off doing it myself.
He is not into the baby, and I'm now 9 months pregnant, 2 days past my due date and he is going out of town for a couple of days tomorrow for job interviews.
High chances he will miss the birth. Although at this point I'm not sure if I prefer him to be gone or to be there, he is really driving me crazy. His presence generates so much stress.
I just feel lonely, I don't have any family other than my 2 kids (one of them with behavior issues). Yes I do talk to a professional once a week but it's actually kind of useless.
I'm so tired of having to be strong all the time. I want someone to take care of me.
I just needed to vent.
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