I feel so inadequate as a mother. I expected to be happy and excited. I did expect to be tired but had no idea truly of this exhaustion. It took over a week for my milk to come in. I breastfeed on demand and try to pump as often as i can although i feel like i cant unless my husband is home because if shes not nursing shes not happy for very long. When i do pump sometimes i only get a few ml. Other times can get nearly an ounce but either way thats so slow going to build freezer stash for going back to work. Infeel like all i do is feed her. Nothing else consoles her its the only way shes quiet. When my husband is home he can calm her pretty well so it feels like a slap in the face..she screams all day with me and then relatively good with him. Dont get me wrong she has fussy time with him too but its like really all im good for is feeding otherwise she hates me. It makes me hate doing this. My MIL tells me this is my only job...feed the baby. Im a doer. I like being busy. This feels awful to be trapped doing the same thing with a baby that hates me unless im feeding her...which is awful to even think. Im supposed to love this. I have no idea if I just dont make enough milk. Im doing everything LLL and LC suggested except supplementing (we did this week 1 and 2 until milk came in). But i just feel like i have no idea what to do at just about 5 weeks. End rant. Suggestions?