after the miscarriage...

It's been almost 2 months since my miscarriage... is it hard for anyone else to find fun in anything? My fiancé and I went on a little weekend getaway.. and it was hard for me to even enjoy being alone with him! It's hard for me to "make love" without trying it breaks me even more! I wanna try again and he's not ready! I understand but it's so hard for me to sleep with him not trying! It hurts too bad! I'm planing my wedding and even that can't take my mind off it! I've been doing bible studies, got a 2nd job, nothing is helping fill that hole! And I'm lost and I don't know what to do.. 😭