depressed, hurt, and all alone

I honestly have just never been so hurt in my life.. I struggle with depression and anxiety and it's like everything in life keeps getting worse and worse and worse.. I've been 3 months clean on cutting myself and today I just couldn't resist.. I feel so alone and like I have absolutely no one.. my family has all cut me off.. and my boyfriend has proven he can't be trusted and that he's a liar.. all I have are my dogs and in 10 days they're going to be gone too and I feel heart broken and hurt and lost.. and everything just keeps piling up and I don't matter.. I'm just useless and stupid.. and I hate myself..