feel like the joy of pregnancy has been taken

Long story short I just neeeded to vent , because I had gestational diabetes my last pregnancy , my doctor tested me early for it. I failed my one hour but just barely so i had hope I would pass my 3 hour 😩😩I was wrong , now I have to go see a specialist and do a strict food plan , and I just wanna break down in tears , I know I should just be happy my baby is healthy but I just feel like the joy of this pregnancy has just been taken from me! All of my other pregnancies have been high risk and I was hoping this one wouldn't be , ok sorry just needed to get that out