Better second marriage....?

I'm getting out of a terrible marriage with lots of verbal and some minor physical abuse, in addition to drug abuse and daily being lied to.

I'm very overwhelmed and depressed and I feel like I will never find love again. Please share any stories of women who have moved on and are happy now. I don't remember the last time I was happy except for when I am with my beautiful 4 month old baby.

**update** (more like further explanation)

My husband just got out of jail for putting his hands on me late last night. It wasn't a beating he was just being rough and stuff and then he smashed half our babies beautiful nursery and a 300 dollar mirror in our room and punched holes in the door and stood over me and the baby screaming (all this because I wouldn't give him his phone unless he agreed to leave, he finally agreed and left and I called the police.

His parents are furious at me, saying that I caused all this and I did a lot to make him angry...

I'm exhausted, having been up all night then went to work as an RN... I feel guilt because the night before this he was so sweet and made me a bubble bath with candles and talked about how glad he was we came through a this (fighting, drug abuse, being separated for 6 weeks when I left the last time).

And now it's irreversible. Now it's court. Now it's all this crap and I just feel like I can't even deal with it. I want to just take it all back.