I'm so done testing

I've been testing since Sunday and af is due tomorrow. I keep seeing the faintest of lines on my tests but nothing definitive. This is my first month trying after a miscarriage in November. I'm having all the possible symptoms, but of course they could also be af related. This is beyond frustrating. I keep telling myself and SO to not lose hope since af has yet to arrive so we're not out this month but holy crap it's hard staying positive. Anyone ever had vvvfl on tests? And what were your outcomes?