Struggling and just need to get this out..

I feel really defeated. I was anorexic for most of my teenage years (always kept myself at or below 100lbs) and always struggled with self image, depression, and anxiety. I never really figured out how to put on make up and do my hair nice no matter how hard I tried.

At 19 I moved in with my then bf (now fiance) and things started to turn around. I started eating more and gained weight, started going for walks almost daily and got less depressed and less anxious.

Fast forward to now. I'm 22, and still really self conscious a lot of the time (though the anxiety and depression only come around once in a while thankfully). I still can't figure out make up and hair no matter how much I practice, I have no idea what to wear in order to look my age, and I just had a baby so my weight is WAY higher than I'd like it to be/am use to, and I have so much acne. I just feel like an overweight mess of a person. My friends and fiance tell me I look great but I just don't see it and it's really frustrating.

Sorry to be such a drag, I just needed to get this out. If you actually read the whole post, thanks for taking the time.