Psychatrist help.

I just need to rant for a minute. I am 24 years old and have horrible anxity and panic attacks. I've been to way to many psychatrists since I was around 20 I cant find someone I like or someone that actually listens. I hate they always want to try you on all these meds that "can" help with anxity. But reallt are for depression or bipoloar. I'm not depressed I'm not bi polar I need help to function during the day and not he panic attacks I need something to help me relax an not over think so I buy xanax or ativan AND IT HELPS WHEN I NEED IT TO. Any dr I've been to instaly tells me no I'm not perceribing those they are benzos. Like really I understand they are addictive I understand I'm young. But if they are what helps me why not. So I went back finally because I can't live like this anymore an what do u know now I'm prescribed 4 new meds that "should" help. I hate drs sometimes.