Is it awful

Does it make me a bad person that I secretly hate my best friend. I've been trying for a baby for over a year and she got pregnant in december doesnt even like babies. It didn't bother me at first but now she's all "my baby this, and my baby that" and I'm just so jealous.. I'm happy for her I am I love her and my god son but I just can't help but be enviou! Am I a bad person for feeling this way.