losing hope

Amber • Ttc since 4/19/15 BFP @ 5-4-18! Blighted Ovum 6-12-18. Chemical 8-26-18.. NOW 🤰🏻 . Hispanic/Arabian Blood line.🇾🇪🇵🇷
Yesterday at 9 Dpo feeling so hopeful I did a hcg blood test at my doctors. Today they call me saying it's negative. 💔 I just wanna kill myself. On top of that my husband slept at his moms (for all I know) last night. We got into a nasty physical fight. 🔪 I feel like I'm losing my stability in my life