can someone give me an advice ☹️☹️😔😔
I'm sorry if this is too long and it's ok if you don't want to read it all but if you do I'm desperate to get an advice please. 
Lately I've been feeling like stucked in a hole and don't know what to do. Don't know if anyone can relate. Like I see life passing by and I'm just watching, everyone doing great at their jobs, getting married, getting a master/phd or something and I've been here struggling for almost a year to find a job, (I graduated last year in June I'm an architect) and I haven't been hired yet and I've been in tons of interviews. I know it usually takes time and some get lucky and get a job right after graduation but also I've been thinking about relationships, I've been single almost my entire life, I dated a few guys, I fell in love once and didn't workout, I'm not shy, probably just a little picky but if I don't like something right away I speak up and usually guys don't like me being too honest I guess and my relationships if I can called them that, don't last more than 4 months (probably I'm not good at them or I'm afraid of not being loved back or I just been focusing on my career). I have never had a formal boyfriend just hanging out and knowing people. Usually the guys I dated for 4 months or so are foreigners and probably the reason why never workout. The few local guys just last for 5 dates and either I got bored or they just disappeared. The last guy I dated was a month ago and we were seeing each other for 2 months but he freaked me out bc he thought and said everyone we were a couple and I clearly told him since the moment I met him and constantly remember him that I wasn't looking for a relationship bc I just had a bad breakup and I was still recovering and I was in love with my ex, so after two months I told him it was better to stop whatever it was between us bc he was falling in love and I wasn't. Needless to say he hates me now.
Sometimes I feel like there's something wrong about me or I've been doing some mistakes and that is why I've been single most of my life. I don't know, I just need someone to give me some advise. I feel like a failure in everything can't focus on anything good in my life at the moment. I feel so alone and that I don't have a purpose in life. Don't know how can I fix this. I started studying french and practicing boxing last year so I didn't get bored but I didn't continue. I think I hit bottom after my last relationship that ended in December, I got depressed and gained 25 pounds (the guy I fell in loved, he was my first and it ended up really bad when I found out he was married so I ended it right away I felt horrible and sad).
I started a fitness competition in February and lost at least 10 pounds (got my confidence back) but it ended in March and most of this month I haven't got any motivation to do anything, just staying in my room. I know it's not healthy, I visited a few friends but came back home even more depressed bc everyone has being going in a good track in life and I'm not jealous I'm just concerned about how I can't get in the right track. I do have plans to study a master in landscaping architecture in Germany but I can't seem to focus on that and of course I need a job so I can saved some money to move and live there. I'm just feeling lost and confused and a big failure. I feel like 28 year old version of Bridget Jones stucked in the firt chapter and still living with my parents. 😣😅🙈☹️
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