eating disorders/self image

Has anyone struggled with eating disorders and/or self image issues in the past? It's something I've always struggled with and I'm now 23 weeks pregnant. I haven't given into my eating disorders in a long while, so it's not like my baby is being malnutritioned or anything. I've just wondered how you've all gotten through this mentally? I've gained about 10 pounds, putting me at 119. I've never weighed this much and it's so hard to see those numbers! If this isn't something you've struggled with before, I probably sound stupid or crazy to you. It's not like I'm going to take any extreme measures and start starving myself or anything, it's just something that's a little difficult for me to accept. I know I have lots more weight to gain and I'm really nervous about if I'll be able to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. I'm also really nervous about pp depression, as I've struggled with depression and anxiety as well. Is anyone else with me?