feeling emotional😭

After five months of waiting to hear the results of my 10 year old cancer treatment I finally have some results. I wish I knew how to translate what I'm feeling into words. My son's  cancer is currently stabled. Meaning it hasn't gotten any worse and there's room for further treatment down the line. I'm happy supper happy but all I want to do is cry. But I feel guilty for wanting to cry. But it would be a cry of relief yet I don't feel free to cry.  My emotions are trapped😫