heart broken 💔

Well a couple days ago I had a miscarriage. I didn't know what in the world was going on with me. I finally went to the doctor and he told me I lost my baby. When I told my (now ex) bf he didn't believe me, he accused me of lying to him. I showed him all the papers and still didn't believe me. Then recently he took everything and left me. Without a reason why. He blocked me on everything I have no way to get ahold of him. I just want an honest why. And he couldn't even give me that. 

I'm tired of crying, our whole relationship was a roller coaster of emotions. He would make me feel so amazing about myself then minutes later he's talking down on me. It was like that for awhile but I was so in love with him I took everything he threw at me. We tried talking about our relationship to fix certain things. But I guess things didn't work out. 

Now I'm depressed, I lost my first baby, my first real love left me without a reason why. I feel so miserable about myself. My best friend left me at my lowest point. 

He always used to tell me we were going to have a baby and get married. But those plans are down the drain. I still love him but I think this is for the best...