I'm done

You know it's so heart breaking saying it but I'm done. My husband has been nothing but distant lately. He doesn't treat me all that great anymore. I posted about how I think he has a thing for my bff and y'all said to talk to him. So I text him tonight expressing my feelings about how he's been distant and how I feel like he has no attraction towards me anymore since I'm and hugely pregnant and my skin looks like  hell. And I went on to say how I feel he might have a thing for my friend. And he said nothing back. He just got home from work not that long ago and I woke up in a daze forgot I had even text all of this to him. He came in the room I said hi. He just looked at me... I said you ok.. he goes yep. I said are you sure you act like you hate your life. So then he just walked away to go get something to eat and hasn't talked to me since and probably won't. I am so tired of these games with him. And I am so tired of being the only one who seems to put forth any effort into this relationship. I think our flame has burned out. We aren't everintimate  which is my fault because being pregnant makes me hate sex. I just don't understand though because I was like this with our last baby and we were fine.  But I guess I'm here to say I'm done. I know that's sad and I'm usually never the type to throw in the towel but I'm done trying to make this work and putting forth so much effort to get someone whose obviously not happy in this to love me or to want this as much as I do. I think we married too young and that's why. We got married when he was 19 he hadn't been in barely any relationships I already had a infant by the time we started to date. He took on the role as Dad for my son and still is the only dad he knows. Our first year of marriage he was deployed and treated me like crap wanted tnothing to do with me or my son. Pretty sure he cheated. We have a 1.5 year old daughter now and bought a house about a year ago. I'm due anytime with our second daughter and my heart is broken. I don't even care if he comes to the hospital for this one I don't think he'd want to anyways. 💔😓 my heart is so broken... I don't cry though because I always felt like I'm meant to be alone with just my kids and I... but I feel so much sadness for my kids and for what should have been.. but I'm giving up. These walls of mine are coming back up and I'm pulling away from him like he has me. I'm done trying and getting hurt over and over. This isn't love and I don't deserve this..