It's been 27 weeks/ 189 days and he's still not home yet 😭

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I've been strong & held up ok for 6 months. But now I've reached my limit.
 
It's the middle of the night, and I'm crying for my baby.
 
Our baby boy was 1 pound & 7 ounces at birth in November. Yes, November.
 
He's now about 12 pounds, and a proper, responsive, bright 'adjusted age' 13-week baby.
 
He needs to be transferred to the Children's Hospital for assessment on a few issues, primarily reflux/feeding. And may undergo surgery. It will probably be a few weeks yet. He's waiting on a bed to become available.
 
We've been mostly very positive to date. It's got us a long way, even through medical ups and downs.
But now, I'm not sure how to handle this anymore. It's too long. I miss him so much.