I am happy because 1) My boyfriend and I are going to meet our little girl in just a few short weeks!! 2) 20 DAYS OF WORK LEFT 3) I just received a gift from some people at Ak Airlines today (who I've shipped through often over the last five years) — their love they have shown me through my pregnancy has warmed my heart! 4) I just got subway, including a chocolate chip cookie. Yum

Although all of those things are just so wonderful to me, I can't help but to be so sad for my boyfriend. He (currently 26) had a stroke when he was 23 and unfortunately, the hospital he went to (after making him wait WAY too long in the ER for somebody actively having a stroke) declared him high on drugs **while the right side of his face was clearly fucking drooping** and sent him away. He never got any answers after that day because he felt like nobody could help. 

As of recently, he's been experiencing the same "rush" of blood pumping sporadically through his body - he says it feels like adrenaline, along with numb limbs similar to the same feeling he felt three years ago. Last incident was right after shopping last night. I thought t was weird that he asked me to drive home, but knew by the look on his face that something wasn't right. His heart rate spiked to over 110 then a few minutes later back down to around 80. He checks his HR through his samsung watch whenever he feels something weird but those numbers stood out to him because of how quickly it happened. 

Anywho, he has always had good jobs but usually seasonal ones through the state so he never really got full benefits. Until now! He has a great job (still with the state), already getting promoted, and he gets to do what makes him happy WITH benefits! He finally got his insurance card this week so he made an appointment. He got some blood work done and my god, I just hope they find SOMEthing. Anything that gets us closer to better health. (Trust me, he won't listen to anybody without a degree. I can say what's good or not for his health all I please but it won't mean anything 😜) I can't imagine we're going to get "good" news.. But any news is better than no news. 

Please wish us luck!!