I don't feel like i can do this.

Marypaz • 22 years old. Married. First baby 4/22❤❤

I'm so scared. My little girl is sick with a cold and she hasn't gained enough weight. She's in the 2nd percentile for her age so they are having me supplement after every feeding with a high Calorie formula. The both times we have she's upchucked all of it! And all she wants to do is sleep even though she's starving 😭 i can't stop crying. I feel like i can't do anything for her. I'm scared I'll lose her. I'm SO scared! She refuses to wake up when i try to wake her. She has so much phlem and booger she struggles to breath and it makes her gag and cry when she's awake which just burns more of the few calories she has! I just feel like I'm breaking apart! 😭

Sorry i needed to get this out somewhere.

*Update*

She's doing so much better. At her appointment on Friday she had gained about six ounces and the doctor said she was still in the lower % like about the 5 th percentile but that atleast she was growing so to keep doing what we were doing!

She's not spitting up like she was...she still spits up but it's mostly a little bit of spit up. She's also been coughing up all that phlegm in her throat and we got her a humidifier to help her breath! I think she's overcoming this bug!

I'm feeling so much better about all this and I'm producing more milk which is great!

Thank you girls for your support and advice it meant a lot to me because i was really not doing okay! But i am now 💜☺