So with our first child breastfeeding was a nightmare not only did my partner get in a fight with my mom and cause issues but our baby didn't latch and my supply was delayed and now that we are having a yard sale he wants to sell the pump. I doubt anyone would buy it anyways but i said I wanted to try again and this time would be different I know what to do and how to support a baby on my boob instead of being so tired and barely knowing anything. Also we are going to have NO visitors next time. I was so uncomfortable last time and he wanted everyone to feed her and I never got a chance to breast feed. It was terrible and he's so unsupportive of it. I don't know what to do I want to do this so much! I want the bond I didn't get to have with my first. She's 7 months now and sometimes throws up on my shirt during feeding so I have to take it off and the skin to skin makes me yearn because I didn't get that with her after the c Section. Everyone else was holding her and everything I didn't hold her until hours after her birth! I cry sometimes holding her against me because I will never get that moment with her and I'm devastated by it. I don't even know how to explain it to him. I also don't know how to advocate for breast feeding because our little one is doing perfect on formula!!!! What do I do about this!? How do I explain to him my desire to breastfeed without sounding like the crazy boob lady!!!!