I had an ex that was crazy but drove me wild physically and made my whole mind just shatter at his touch and tease, but the actual sex part he was terrible in. But you see he was terrible at being a boyfriend so I left him, but then I went back to him multiple times because I would get bored of my current boyfriend and once we broke up I would go to him and just relive that flame over and over again and once he got all "relationship talk" I'd stop it and move on. And you see I'm with this amazing guy I mean he really is my future and I love him but I'm going through a super hormonal phase and for the last two weeks I've either masturbated or had sex with my boyfriend but it's been three days and today I had a dream about my ex and in the dream he was trying to kiss me and I stopped him because I have a boyfriend and then I woke up. But since then I've been thinking about him physically and it's aching because now I want to see how he is doing even though I have no intention of being with him it's just after the dream I feel weird. And. It doesn't help my boyfriend pissed me off today so my emotions Re on a real big roller coaster. I know In the end I will choose my boyfriend no matter what but I feel bad thinking about my terrible ex. Had to get that off my chest. Thank you for listening.