Miscarriage

That one time I felt like a mommy... now I don't know how to feel exactly. When I feel sad about it I feel like I shouldn't feel bad for myself. I don't want to have a pity party... I miscarried last week, consisting of 3 days the last day being the most painful experience. I was suppose to be 9 weeks but measured 6 weeks, the same as my first ultra sound... I just don't know... :/