TWW after 2 miscarriages

b r i t t a n y • Mum to Grace Ophelia Crazy Plant Lazy 🪴
I lost my first baby at 11 weeks in February and lost my rainbow baby last month at 6 weeks.
I'm currently 4 dpo and I don't know how to feel. I know we easily get pregnant... but staying pregnant is another story. I imagine getting a positive test and I don't feel anything but... blah. Like "how long will it last this time?" I don't want to be so pessimistic. I cant help it though.