the worst

I'm having trouble getting over my first love. This was also my first break up and I don't know how to handle it. I vent a lot on here, I just don't want to hold everything in. I have my good days and bad days. I always contemplate back and forth if I should burn the bridge with him or not. After we broke up he says this to me. I don't know if I should be hopeful for the future or not. I don't know what to think or do. And all the advice I get is different. I don't know what to do. My mind is everywhere and I'm really hurting. I don't know if I'd making a huge mistake or dodging a bullet if I burned the bridge with him. And one thing to keep in mind is I'm a sexual assault survivor and he knows. He's always been supportive of me up until now, and he's uncertain of what to do for a career. My emotions are very strained and everywhere and I've been told I need to wait until I have my emotions under control before I make any final decisions, but it's just hard.