my story!! not giving up!!

Had my first MC in January of 2016 at 10wks... it wasn't plannedbut we were so so happy... sent me into a major major depression that I eventually got medicated for and attended counselling... about 2 months later we decided to start TTC as we both were happy with our situation and knew we were more than ready... so got pregnant again in the August and lost it very early (had just found out), sounds horrible but it didn't affect me AS badly... fast forward to December of 2016, all my sisters were home from Australia (I live in Ireland) as one was getting married so I was very distracted that month and wasn't really tracking all that much (I use opk's) and started spotting about a week or so before the wedding so I assumed AF was here.. however say after the wedding (24th of December xmas eve) I decided to test (curiosity &I had a digital) & it was positive so naturally no alcohol or anything... me and SO were so so happy and then because of previous MC I was paranoid and was testing every other day and noticed the line was getting fainter and then nearly gone... MC on New Year's eve! Had another suspected MC 2/3 months ago but I'm keeping my head hopeful! I will have my rainbow 🌈 baby! LOVE TO YOU ALL ❤❤❤