My baby has gone...im a broken women

On friday the 2nd of june we got a phone call to say my grandad was not doing so good....he took his last breath at 1.20...i started bleeding at 1.18...i took myself to A&E where they did a pregnancy test and said i will have to wait till Monday to have a scan....all weekend my pregnancy symptoms were going... i no longer had sore breast i no longer had the erge to put my hand on my belly...it was mad everyone said no ur just being negative but i just new...anyway monday comes and me and my other half and my sister go to the scan appointment...she puts the jelly on and starts scanning a baby pops up on the screen amd we all start smiling so there was still hope....the lady who was scanning said she needs a closer look and had to do an internal scan which she then called a second person in and they both had a go to find the heart beat when she said to me im so sorry we cant find a heart beat that was it my heart broke after trying for like 5 years and i wanted this baby more than anything... my baby and my grandad walked hand in hand to heaven...