Dont produce enough

A while ago i was trying to get pregnant, but i did in nov and lost it due to stress. So we were trying but now im not intetested in being pregnant at all. Its depressing, and heartbreaking. Plus i feel that it may not be my time again. Things happen for a reason and i guess this was the reason. I also feel that since i once was preggers that this was my daughter. Although i have one who is 9 but another one would be nice. I also have two boys who i love, i love all three but just wanted one more. But it is what it is. Im thinking about birth control my other half when i told him he looked dissatisfied. Oh well