Ugh this sucks

I been ttc 6 years and my friend was ttc 3 years. She deserved it when she got pregnant. She has 5 weeks left of her pregnancy but it has been so hard to get her a baby shower gift. I look at baby stuff and I get tears in my eyes. I'm so jealous. I really wish it was me that was pregnant. Really wish I could buy her something without getting so emotional