So anxious about Labour!?

Francesca
I am just 8 weeks and 2days pregnant! And all I can't think about is Labour and how I will cope. I have had 2 previous Labours 1st Epidural and 2nd natural. 
2nd no complications probably the perfect birth but I cannot get the pain of pushing out of my mind I think I can cope with Contractions but the thought of pushing is making me sick! I'm here considering an elective c-section but I feel like I am been over the top because some would dream to have the Labour i did previously ! Obviously pain threshold isn't that high 💔 
Any recommendations to help relax ???