I'm 29. Been TTC for 2 years. Incredibly depressed. Feeling unworthy and useless. Noone to talk to. I told my SO im depressed but I cant talk to him much about this because his sperm is the problem & he's pretty sensitive about it. I cant have both of us being this depressed. I cant talk to friends cuz either they are either new moms (& only talk about their kids which makes me more depressed) or they are single (and depressed that they don't have an SO yet...so i definitely cant bring up kids). My fam is currently planning my sisters wedding and I dont want to dampen it and further I know that they will all be depressed for me and pray for me and I dont think I Can deal with the additional stress of knowing I'm causing pain to my parents and siblings.

Meanwhile, they all want to know why I dont have a kid yet. Everyone I know, including the rando people in my apartment community are all asking me why I dont have kids yet! "Your so good with kids. Why dont know guys have one? You should try a profession with children!" Its awful. Every time I'm asked I feel like a small part of me goes dark inside...

I wanted to know if anyone shared my plight...I assume there is more than one of us on here. I wouldn't mind if we could encourage each other a bit.

I promise to pray for you too when I pray for myself. I understand your struggle and I'm here for you. If you need to talk I will respond without bringing you down further or making you feel bad for asking. Let me repeat, I'm here for you