Lost for words

I haven't been on this in awhile and I feel more comfortable coming here cause I know u all will be a support instead of crying with me and making me cry more I lost one of my dear friends last night to suicide he was my high school sweetheart per say and my first love. We went our separate ways. I just can't shake it I'm broke inside he was so filled with happiness and such a great person all around. It just shows that sometimes u can't see depression and that we don't always know there pain. But if this post can make a difference I'm gonna try. If u feel like suicide is a option just know there is people who will listen and there is hotlines u can call anonymously. Know that u matter. I wish I could of told him sooner. My heart it's completely shattered I think I died a lol with him. Till I see u again. 😢