To be or not to be....

Okay so I'm 18 and still a virgin, no biggie right? I've been able to hold on to it by masturbating almost every day, watching porn and weeding out the fuckboys. However recently my hormones have been crazy, and I've contemplated oral sex with someone I'm comfortable with. The only problem is the person might want to have sex after, and while I'm not necessarily waiting to get married to lose it or anything, I do want to be with someone whose actually mine when I lose it. Am I being unfair, or childish towards him?