need opinions

I had my first stillborn with my first child at 38 weeks and 5 days. Then I got pregnant with my first rainbow 2/3 months after my stillborn. once my son (my rainbow) was almost 2 I got pregnant with my second rainbow that ended up being a stillborn at 35 weeks and 6 days... it's been 5 weeks almost 6 since I gave birth to him. Still no period. But I'm also conflicted about getting pregnant again.