not really ttc

Not actually ttc. But my so and I Are not preventing it. Af has been a few days late every month for the past few months. I know We're not actually trying at the moment but every time it's late I get so happy. Then take a test and nothing. It sucks. Due to my heart condition it's too risky for me to have kids when I'm older.  I've already had multiple heart sugerys.  my doctor said if I wait to long they're going to recemond to terminate because it'd put to much stress on my heart . It's risky for anyone who's older. But I'm 22 and wish I'd just get that one positive. Af is 8 days late we're both tired of feeling lost so going to wait to test.