When my DH thought he was done having kids 19 years ago he decided he would have a vasectomy. Well he got remarried and she wanted a child so it had it reversed. During the reversal he developed some sort of blockage that is letting absolutely no sperm through. He had his count checked the 9th and they called the following Monday with results. We live in Illinois but believe it or not there is no one here that will do that sort of microsurgery. We now have to see if his insurance will cover it and if the doctor will even accept us. I knew during my tww that something emotionally felt "off". When I get upset or something is on my mind I tend to shut everyone out. So when my DH got this news I lost it. I completely just bawled my eyes out. We can't afford <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> so the only other choice would be <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> (which his insurance does cover). But the facility we have to go to is in St. Louis. I'm really trying not to be a bitch and be sad and I'm sure he feels worse knowing it's his lack of sperm. I've tried talking to him, a couple of my friends, my 21 and 17 yr olds and they are all like well maybe it's not meant to be, or, don't worry now you'll have retirement to look forward to. But see, here's the deal. DH and I went to high school together. He was captain of football team, Prom King, and just an excellent guy. Huge crush for sure. So now that we're together all we want is a baby together. I'm sure after I post this I'll delete it anyway. I just wanted to say something and get some sort of positive feedback. Btw, the research on the microsurgery is pretty good, but that's if they're using <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. not sure about <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. UGH. i need a hug lol