A story I wanted to share because I just want to talk to somebody about it (might be a smidgen tmi):

So at the place I work a bunch of us stay on site at the staff house and we're all about college age and things are pretty chill, we're all pretty relaxed but sometimes we party. So there's this one guy I work with (I'll call him T) who I got to be pretty good friends with and I really trust him! He's funny, cute, really strong, has wonderful green eyes, his hair is a little long, he let me cry one his shoulder while he held me one night, and he's genuinly a nice person. So at a party that started on the 24th and went early into the 25th there'd been a little drinking done and T had probably smoked some weed (as he does on occassion), things had begun to die down and 4 of us were all hanging out in T's room. Now it just so happened that me and T had ended up on the coutch together and we were sort of cuddling and when the other 2 left we stayed that way and kept talking until I made some comment about his strength and he then picked me up to prove me wrong. He then dropped me on the bed, we talked a little more before making out and things went as you could probably imagine.

Now about that night:

-I probably talked way to much

-I didn't come but I had a great time and learned lots

-It ended up hurting quite a bit because a) he's really big b) I really just couldn't get wet enough despite how much I wanted it (looking back on it I blame the alcohol)

-Had never givin a blow job before that night but according to him I was really good at it 😏

So overall I was just very, very happy.

This went on until the early morning and he fell asleep for a while. An hour before my shift began I woke him up to see if he wanted breakfast, he just wanted to sleep which was understandable considering the circumstances so I kissed him on the cheek, told him to have a good day, and left to get ready.

Fastforward to today, he barely acknowleges me when I talk to him, I have a hard time looking at him, and It's just so awkward and I don't know what to do! A part of me is scared that he was so fucked up that night he doesn't remember any of it, and another part feels like I got used and tossed away and that he's deliberatly blocking me out. I'm doing my best to continue doing what I love and work normally but I just really want him emotionally and physically! Is there anything I can do? I don't know how to breach this subject with him and I'm so scared to honestly.