I need help.

I do not know what to do. I'm around 170-180 lbs ( I don't know for sure ). For the past year I've been getting really sick and vomiting violently after every meal I eat weather it be healthy or unhealthy. So I've began binging and purging basically. I feel like I'm not getting enough food so I eat so much and then get so sick . Sometimes it's a compulsion because I ALWAYS get sick. I'm losing no weight si that's not my motivarion. I'm ttc and I want my child to come into this world without a sick mom so I'm putting it on hold. I need help with someone who understands where I'm coming from. How did you stop binging and rationing your food? I feel like I'm dying from being sick. I faint, have constant migraines, and am always dizzy. I'm so scared my stomach will rip from me eating so much (it happens) and I'm tired of being in pain. Please help me and give me advice and stories or let's beat this together! I don't want to ttc right now anymore whixh is killing me because after my MC in March it's gotten worse.