night feedings..

So my baby eats at probably 8 or 9 at night and will sleep until 2 or 3 and I try my best to stay awake until his 2-3 AM feeding because if I fall asleep and he wakes up crying and fussing I have such a short fuse when I wake up to feed him, I'm hateful basically the whole time and I feel soooo bad about it afterwards.. but if I stay awake I hear when he's actually starting to move around and wake up so I get his bottle ready and just wait on him to wake up completely. Does this happen to anyone else? I feel bad when I'm short with him and tell him to hush.. like I realize he's a baby and he's hungry but half asleep me just hears a noise and puts the pacifier in and says "shhhhhhhhh" like I'm trying to hit snooze.. but with a baby lol I swear half asleep me is a whole other person.