I don't know what's wrong with me today, despite going thru some things I'm usually such a happy person but since I woke up I've been mopeing around I have no desire to leave my apartment which is abnormal I'm usually on the go 24/7 I have no desire to watch tv, or talk to anyone really, my allergies have been really bad so I can't breath and I think it's triggering some anxiety for me, but also took a hefty dose of verbal abuse from my ex (of four years who psychailly abused me so bad in the first trimester of my pregnancy I had to move out) nothing new there though but maybe it's finally like all catching up to me.. I'm 8 months pregnant and I am so scared of how I am going to survive once the baby is born I live on my own and I don't really have anyone to watch the baby while I work so I know he will be back in my life and the closer this gets the more terrified I am I keep face very well because I have a ten year old daughter who is the love of my life and I don't want to put her thru anything else after this last big life change(us moving, his abuse, and cheating and her having to witness some of it) I hate feeling this way though helpless and scared and sick also with the allergies and the pains of pregnancy I just wanted to whine I guess.. this is a funky day I wanna blame pregnancy hormones and the allergies I'm just feeling really anxious and miserable and like helpless which is part of the anxiety all of it