From here on out, I will not let my addiction and mental illnesses get the best of me. I will fight for what I believe in and that is getting better.

There is something wrong with me, I haven't been happy for a long time and I need to find happiness again.

I've smoked weed since I was 15 and I am 19 years old now and 26 weeks pregnant with a baby boy that I need to learn to be stronger for.  I need to stop blowing up my boyfriend's phone while he's busting his ass for me and I need to get over the fact that he's a man and dealing with my bs and it's going to stress him out too. I need to understand that he is a person and he's going through this with me too, it's not just me.

I need to change before my negativity and actions change my life for me.