Idk what to think anymore...

I'm 13 and I have depression, not much of anxiety though, and I've told my mom, but she doesn't notice, doesn't get my suffering, and can't seem to help. No offense to my mom, but she just makes me feel uncomfortable when I am depressed which isn't a good combo. Tbh I have cut and I have looked at suicide as an option multiple times (still do even), but I try to think positive and it only leads to worse outcomes.

(Pleased no hate! I already hate myself! And please no "suicide prevention hotline too it just sorta makes me think of it more of an option and it doesn't help me...Sorry!)

Who agrees with the picture by the way?