Vvvfl or finally my Bpf???

Ok guys... So I have pcos and can have cycles every other month. I didn't have one last month and Af was suppose to arrive on the 7th of this month. Still nothing. My hisband and I have been trying for 2 years and had found out we were finally pregnant in December only to lose our precious baby a week later. I want a child so bad but every month that Af arrives my heart breaks a little more... Is this finally my rainbow baby? Or am I just getting my hopes up?