Please read - im sorry guys

Guys I just want to vent

I'm so sad and scared I don't even know what to do anymore . I'm sure a few of you recognise me now from my name and my constant posts but I'm genuinely a really paranoid person. I love my boyfriend to bits and I honestly feel like we will last a long time , we get each other our parents are good friends and everything just works out , the only problem is every time we do acts of a sexual nature I get super paranoid that I could be pregnant even though I've never engaged in sexual intercourse . My paranoia is seriously effecting my relationship because obviously he respects that I don't want to do stuff and he's fine with it but he's getting tired of me being paranoid and i feel so bad because I'll literally freak out if he cuddles me . I just really want someone to talk to because I'm finding myself worrying every night to the extent where I am crying . I think the worst thing of all is the fact that I post my worries on here because I got the impression it was a nice and welcoming environment however a number of women have been downright awful to me which makes me feel so alone and I don't even know what to do . Yes I am a teenager and If I post stuff like this people will judge and look down upon me but for my sake please spare that nasty remark because I'm sure you are aware of how difficult it actually is to be a teenager . Thank you