Okay so I am a recovering self harmer. I've been self harming ever since I was in the fifth grade and I'm currently 22 years old. Self harming has became a coping mechanisms for me in any ways from being abused sexually, physically, mentally, emotionally, and verbally it's been an outlet for me for so long. I found out I was pregnant on the 30th of March. I am currently 20 weeks and 1 days pregnant and I told myself that I would never self harm again and that I had to get rid of these scars. I'm a first time mom and I did not want to bring a human into this world with this and I just wanted the scars to go away. I was even willing to get a tattoo to speed up the process because these two oils that I'm using I'm not really seeing a difference. On June 10th something traumatic happened and I had a relapse. I am a month clean and free of self harm. I am just sad and I regret ever starting I wish my mother believed me when I told her I was raped maybe I wouldn't have started to self harm. I wish I would've told my guidance counselor the truth when she asked me. I wish these scars weren't there. I wish I never started. I feel like a horrible person. I'm crying my eyes out. I've failed my child already. Does anyone have any positive advice or words of encouragement. Please leave the negativity away from this post I'm really down and I don't need it. Please help.